Many wonderful, unexpected changes occur during the life coaching process. A big one for many is self-awareness. Sometimes we don’t even realize the energy drains and habits that keep us in the insane world of same when our soul is crying for change.
After self-awareness, the second most significant change as a result of the coaching process is follow-through. People actually take their dreams out of the sky and work on them to completion.
Some of my clients may choose to share their process here. How they managed their weekly assignments? What they uncover about themselves? And the joy power of making conscious choices.
ok so my first “assignment” as per life coaching was to stop saying how tired I was or use any language that communicated the same sentiment …I thought, “no problemo,” “piece of cake”…I mean I was thinking that just cause I don’t “say” how t$$#@$ed I am, won’t change the fact that I am…that.
First of all it was fun watching what I say to myself, ’cause I am always talking to myself and I caught myself quite a few times. To my surprise, maybe I’m getting more rest or allowing myself to get more rest, but I “feel” less…that… than I did before I began this assignment.
My other assignment was to do no “work” — work meaning any of the 5,000 projects I have in various stages of undoneness (most of them are projects I was brought into, but did not originate from me). It was a relief not to work on anything in particular or not have the pressure to work on anything. What I found was 1. that a project came through that did require immediate action — but in doing it and completing it I felt inspired. I have since begun actually working on some things that are just for me and it feels light and freeing and I am excited to be doing rather than thinking about doing or avoiding doing for whatever reason.
that is all for now…I have a callback and claim the job – no others need apply! peace B
Man, I had the toughest time with the affirmation. I tried “I am light, I am Godlight, I am filled with God’s love and light, I am filled with energy…ahhh I can’t remember what else I tried, but geez none of them shifted the energy when I was sinking energetically. I will try what you suggested in the email from Session #2 — “I have all the power, all the wisdom and all the God in me I need to think and feel and experience abundant life.” Ok maybe that is kind of long for me. The shorter ones you gave yesterday are more realistic. I am worthy.
Speaking of which, I finished my script and that feels great – it’s mad silly and its done! I will register it with WGA today!
I had a wonderful breakthrough this week. I was having problems with my roommate — co writer etc. We are working on a couple of projects, but her inability to pay monthly bills and contribute to the communal household financially was making me nuts. But, I was trying to be civil when I’ve felt anything but that. The tension was killing me and finally we had to stop working on our “projects” and acknowledge that we can’t move forward until the basics are taken care of. And, I am posting her room for rent on craigslist — if I get a suitable roommate before her money situation improves – she and her kids are moving into the family room. Which is a very temporary situation. She knows she is about to be homeless with two kids. And, honestly I feel a weight lifting off of me, I need a housemate who can afford to be there, period.
I got this thing about mothering people and it is connected to my worth. So I am seeing that I surround myself with folks who “need” something from me. Or, I perceive that they need something from me and as long as I can “provide” that something, I am a good friend (in my mind). That dynamic has served me long enough. I am ready to let the capable people in my life step forward and be their capable selves, and for me to concentrate on taking my “capableness” to the next level. Let that aspect of myself serve me. Let that create a ripple effect and serve others by proxy. Namaskar
Time is my other assignment – to be continued …peace
Is it possible to actually see your greatest weakness and extract its strength? This past week or so, I’ve been clobbered with several reality checks about myself AND I have experienced great positive affirmations as well.
I auditioned as two of my three personas and had two completely different experiences! The second being much better than the first — I used positive affirmations to remind myself that THIS MOMENT is MINE. And that is was my TIME to SHINE. The experience was high and I got the job!
And – I just realized that I unwittingly moved my family from one crazy drama filled situation to another very similar situation and I now know without a doubt that these other people are crazy and I drew them into my experience to now and forever more grow past my feelings of lack and worthlessness! lol! Hallejulah! Thank you change agents! And I got to have this revelation in the presence of my mother, the woman I developed my compulsion to mother for. How sweet and ironic that is!
I am glad I am a giver and when I am centered nothing makes me feel more fulfilled. I want to add taking to my giving in the sense that I am able to have my needs meet and do not martyer myself. There is good in being of service to others and I look forward to rounding out that experience in my life.
Now my brain is crumbling… hasta pronto
PS I have also followed some clear steps to righting my situation:
as things pan out I will update but I look forward to living my ideal reality — in my living situation and in my coparenting situation and in my career!!
Taking steps you can see better with an outside person
Well, I have to say I’m one of those people who see what i haven’t done and seem to miss all that I have done. Case in point i just read a recap from a session and i realize for the first time that i have been taking steps toward claiming and living my life, rather than waiting for someone else to give me permission to live my life.
I am super proud of myself right now. And, honestly I need these reminders, little pats on the back. Yesterday for example, was powerful – I got so much done and confronted my housemate, who i was furious at.
I’m most proud at how I handled my housemate situation. I was so mad that it was affecting me. I was having a constant debate with her in my mind. It was draining and just made me more mad and more miserable. This all stems from her not paying bills or rent on time or at all!!! And, I’ve just had it. The straw was a utility bill she said she would pay but neglected to inform me that she had no money. The morning the bill is due she very non chalently mentions that she can’t pay it. We are about to have our electricity disconnected with 4 kids in the house and we are in the middle of a heat wave. I about lost it.
But, I didn’t loss it instead I told her I was pissed then spun my feelings in my mind all day and night! In the morning was emotionally constipated and a stressed out mess. I left the house – dropped off kids, etc., but instead of going straight to work, I came home and confronted her. I realized that I had to talk to her for me. Not for her. And, I did just that.
I feel a gazillion times better and she knows exactly how I feel and instead of just saying whatever to her. I spoke to her and backed it up with action. We agreed that July 5th is her deadline to get up to date with bills and rent. I emailed the Landlord about the deadline, thanked him for his patience, etc. I don’t feel heavy or confused or conflicted. I am clear was a bell. I want reciprocal, healthy, rejuvenating relationships in my life and I will only accept what feels right. Trusting my own barometer means so much to me.
At the end of the day I don’t need to sell myself to get love. On the contrary I have everything I could possible need within myself. Amen, Namaska
it seems like i’m always waiting for the kids to go to sleep to blog…of
course when the kids are finally sleeping I’m often a zombie good for
sitting and staring at nothing in particular.
so my big deadline for the ole housemate resolution came and went
uneventfully. the landlord came up to pick up our checks in person but she
(my housemate) asked him not to cash until monday so now we wait til monday.
i guess it doesn’t much matter to me as long as she pays rent and bills
i’m good.
i had a wonderful experience this week though with one my roommate’s
friends – she is very, very intuitive and she called out the hurt child aspect
in me. i was immediately defensive not in words but in posture. she was
definitely hitting something tender. anyway, i had a really good cry
afterward and saw myself as a little girl feeling very anxious and confused
about how to please my mom in particular. Though i have hurt around my dad as
well, it was my mom that seems to resonate most. anyway after my cry i felt so
much lighter. still do.
i took care of a few things i’ve been meaning to do today and tomorrow if
not today i will write and mail my thank you letters and register my script.
i was feeling kind of wore out earlier – getting something done that i’ve
been meaning to do really gave me an energy burst.
cool.
seeing the light
of day….Laugh out loud
Ok I have found a few emerging images I like. I am writing my ideal life. What fun that is. And in general though my anxiety creeps up here and there. I am feeling very progressive. Still haven’t gotten my thank you letters out (what a trip), but I did register my script! hooray! And I am basically starting a production company and looking to write a business plan around a documentary idea. This idea needs a greenlight from my aunt, but I think she’ll give it and in any case I’m moving forward ’cause it feels sooo good.
i don’t like that feeling of being of only working on other people’s stuff. moving forward with things that have meaning to me feels right and on-time. not to mention the fact that i feel like most of what is making me anxious is really out of my control. i had a great conversation with my housemate about our projects but i failed to include my true reservations about why i am not moving forward as expected. if i have another opportunity i won’t miss it a second time but otherwise it feels like things have been left unsaid and that creates wierd tension. i haven’t come back to it yet because i’m sure she would hear me right now…so i wait. in the mean time full steam ahead my eyes are open and looking in front of me down the road a piece….feels mighty good, mighty good…
ooook. I did organize my closet not fully there is still work to do, but more is done than before and it feels good. There feels like so much to do? What is that about? this week is a blur. I shot a commerical job and leading up to that I think i was extremely excited and a little nervous. I need to make more dinero like yesterday. My housemate situation still can grate my nerves, but the positive…focusing on what i want.
I want a workable living space some place that is organized and light.
I want wholesome foods for my kids to eat and they eat them with delight.
I want to earn lots of money, so money is never a concern, but an asset that I can use for the comfort of my family and the benefit of the world.
I want a beautiful, healthy, sexy, wholesome, loyal, intelligent man in my life, who is my life partner/husband/lover/spiritual mate.
I want a healthly planet to live on and can sustain my children and their children and their children’s children, etc.
OH!! And most exciting I got my first WGA registered script in the mail. It is a little certificate looking paper. I think I will frame it for posterity.
Happy to be on my journey…
I feel like I really need to push myself. After shooting this commerical, not for nothing I looked great on film!!! Like much better than I do in person. I swear to God. Is that conceited?
Whatever it is I want more of it. So here is what I am thinking. To develop a three minute stand up routine(?) and go into Daniel Hoff and audition for the voiceover department. Where ever I am fearful of rejection and what have you — go for it!!!
Ok I have like two more session which I can’t stand because I feel like I want this assistance forever, that being said I want to do these two other things before we end!!!
All of which is moving forward on my life plan, which i have to keep reminding myself is FUN!! Be creative…
to the journey peace out
I had this experience right…I re met a college friend, a cutie of a boy… well man, but his young man vibe is very strong — it’s funny like me I am not new on the planet in years but I feel brand spanking new… anyway this friend and I reconnected after 18 years (that still doesn’t feel real to say).
In college I had a little crush on him ’cause he was sooo cute, but young. I think he was a freshman when i was a senior. I was heavy into political organizing and sometimes he and his friends would show up to events and (seriously) we’d all get excited (the female organizers that is) but they (the cute young boys) weren’t consistently down (understandably so we were too intense for our damn selves).
It was kind of magical to reconnect the way we did…
I was at the Griffith Observatory with my friend and her kids. We were waiting on another friend, but we were on the lower level. I had this feeling we should go upstairs so that we didn’t miss the friend and her kids. I just felt that they would arrive any minute. So we went upstairs. I was sitting on the steps of the Observatory for maybe 5 minutes or less and these two cats walk up and one is very handsome and looks familiar…
I said, “You look familiar?” and he said, “Tana?” (He said that he said Tanayi but I didn’t hear the yi) Anyway I almost fell over…I did knew this cat. And he looked exactly like he did in college but now he is 35 yrs old (plenty grown) and had gray in his beard stubble.
We hung out (I mean hung out) for the next 2-3 days… we kissed and touched…nothing too heavy…I so could face him and myself the next day (which was awesome). It was sexy and fun and funny…
He is the first person I’ve been with besides my ex in 9 years?!! Crazy and lovely.
Now I think of him and get excited, wish he was around to hang with, but am also glad that he is not. He went back to NYC where he lives. I get very serious very quickly (that is my MO) and right now I just need to chill…
There is someone else here in LA that I’d really like to get to know. And I want to be free to do that. This time around it is all about the heart and trusting it. My sex has gotten me into trouble in the past and still can. She is not leading this show no mo’.
I went out with another gentleman last night and like him in a friend capacity, but I do not feel him at all. He is handsome and manly (in a nice way), but there is no spark for me. It was nice to feel the difference. Now I have a source of comparison. If I were to fool around with this guy it would be a conscious decision to get off but be disconnected.
I have feelings and energy for my friend from college. I am curious about our reconnection. And, I am very curious about this other cat (I have yet to go out with this guy).
In terms of my feelings and building the life I want, right now I am commited to being open to what I feel and trusting it.
I am about to start an acting class. Normally there isn’t anything super signicant about that per say, but the way this came about it is an affirmation.
My uncle mentored this actor — he is pretty recognizable though you may not know his name. Anyway I had approached him about doing a project on my uncle. It ended up that my family didn’t want to do the project, but this actor is also an acting teacher and he invited me to his intro class.
I went to the class and it seemed very intense and valuable. It also cost more than I could afford at the moment. I let it go basically with the idea that when all the elements were in place I’d be able to do the class with ease.
I get a email from this guy’s assistant inviting to me to do a work study basically working for the guy on a book he is writing in exchange for the class!!
I am really psyched and am gearing up to get my ass kicked into shape – in terms of my career as an actor, writer, producer, and whatever else I want to do as I evolve in my truth and my power without apology or hiding.
amen people amen
I kissed another guy! Daggonit I am really getting the hang of all this yummy kissing. I am having delicious fun imagining having sex, but I leave without the orgasm or feeling like a slut. It is definitely a trade-off but at this point well worth it.
I’m thinking that for me in the whole dating game, I am the one in control and for the most part my sex is premium. So far the response from these men is always the same. “I could really fall in love with you!” How cute is that!?
I may be a little gassed but that is definitely the vein I want to be functioning in. Although I neither of the guys are “the one” it feels really good to be free and light and sexy.
I haven’t set the tenor for myself and my baby daddy in terms of our dating his and mine with other people. That will be fun!
It is a funny thing. The last boy I kissed I did fool around with and now I can say without question that the heavy petting can wait!!
All of a sudden, poof the mystery is gone. The man and I have no other real connection yet and so the heavy petting doesn’t add (at least in this case). I am applying this as a rule in general to my situation. I knew it already. I really did. But, having pushed the envelope a little confirms that big time.
Sex is good and has it’s place, but for me, without substance that is nothing behind it but emptiness. Now I didn’t have sex with this person, (thank GOD), but can imagine how that would have been. Not worth it.
In this stage, we (me, myself and I) get to go back to high school, where kissing was a big deal, and sex wasn’t really an option (for me anyway). Now of course I have the benefit of knowing what sex is all about and I got a couple of kids to prove it!!